Left Behind

Left behind. I know it sounds horrible but I am so guilty when it comes to those words. I realize that I have had many great friends and family relationships in my life but then it happens...I leave them behind. Not on purpose, mind you, I simply run out of hours in the day. Old roommates, and best friends simply vanish into a drawer full of pictures. Most not forgotten. They live somewhere in my heart and pop up periodically in my mind. I wonder how I lost touch with them and if they even remember me. Quite honestly the people I talk to now are in the present time. Mostly colleagues at work, but as they move on or I change jobs will they be left behind too. It's funny because I can remember bonds so strong with people in my past that I was certain we would be close forever.....now they're forgotten. I keep track of people on my cell phone. When it breaks, they become forgotten. I am bad at inviting people out, or over. I am horrible when it comes to birthdays. I don't call people to check on them and if they don't call me they become the left behind. As I mature (I'm not getting older), I realize how I have missed out on some beautiful friendships. It's sad really, almost lonely. Hopefully it is not to late and I can reconnect to some of those precious friends and family. Now that my kids are more easily babysat I can once again enjoy friendly dinners with other guilt free. If you are reading this and I left you behind, I'm sorry. Hurry though my life is at a red light and I'm waiting for you to catch up.